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Secrets Unveiled....

Secrets Unveiled 


"Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."
-Mark 5:34

As women and men we have secrets that lie deep within us. I know for me I had secrets about myself that I didn’t want anyone to know; this all started out as a kid. Just like the pictures, I was young, innocent, care free, loving, bold, and brave. The best part about being a kid was my freedom, innocence, and curiosity. Then life just happened..... life happened early to me when I was sexually abused as a young child and I didn’t feel so innocent anymore, I had that feeling of guilt, fear, and not knowing if I should tell or not. I was that little girl who kept this secret until I was 18 years old. This experience taught me how to keep other secrets like the physical and mental abuse in my relationships. I learned how to not use my voice, stay in my little corner, cover things up, and block things out. I learned how to not face my own realities.  


My secrets caught up with me the moment I hit rock bottom. I didn't understand why I would cover up my feelings, use things and people to fill voids, unsure of myself, and unable to come to peace with my past. My secrets were finally starting to overflow and control my life rather than me controlling my life. I eventually learned that in order to grow I had to stop hiding from myself and face hard truths about my past.  This was scary facing all the good and bad in my life at once. I had to look my soul in the eye and dig deeper than ever. Once I dug deeper I learned that being vulnerable was okay, to stop the patterns of my silence when I needed help the most, and I finally realized that the root of all my problems were my secrets. Fear silenced me, I was afraid that if I used my voice it would destroy others lives but instead I just let it destroy mines even if I didn’t cause the pain. My secrets taught me to give up on myself, they made me feel as though I had no purpose. My secrets were eating me alive. Understand,  my secrets were not just the abuse I endured they were also the truths about myself such as my nasty attitude, my negativity, and my poor choices. Everything ugly about myself I just didn’t want to face. I started to question my truths I was beginning to turn the victim (myself) into the villain when it came to my past. I was screaming on the inside all because of my secrets. 


Life is about growing, there will be transitions in your life constantly. You will learn new things about yourself everyday. In order to grow you have to set your secrets free. The secrets of your past and the secrets of who you are now. You have to realize God is the truth and nothing but the truth and the enemy is a lie, the enemy will isolate you, the enemy is all your secrets that lie deep within you that need to be set free. It’s time to speak up, and understand that it is okay to see the beauty and  ugly in ourselves.  You can never grow if you don’t face your own reality. You can’t get to where you want to be if you are flooded by your secrets. ASK FOR HELP. Do not become your past you are bigger and better than that. You are stronger than that,  its mind over matter. You can climb this mountain and get to the top. The more you begin to face your truths and look them in the eye; you will become free little by little every single day. God never said the process to your blessings would be easy he just wants you remain faithful. In order to reach your blessings it takes work on yourself.  The first part is to never question the things of your past but to see the beauty in your pain. Be raw with yourself, and for those who have endured abuse understand you are not alone. There are so many people I know who are being abused and have been abused, not once have they spoken up. You have to realize speaking up is putting yourself first,  it is time to take care of ourselves and release ourselves of all toxins. You can’t grow with toxins inside of your heart and soul. It’s time to Forgive Ourselves, it’s time to heal, it’s time to surround ourselves with only love and positivity. There is nothing wrong with crying, feeling, and being vulnerable.  Life is about moving forward and never looking back. Ask God to reveal all the pain, hurt, and ugly inside of you. Ask for Transparency, you have to be transparent with yourself in order to grow.  Never let your secrets make you forget who you truly are. It’s time to uncover ourselves and realize our beauty and strength. It’s time for our Secrets to finally become Unveiled. 

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  1. UnknownSeptember 27, 2018 at 3:21 PM

    Thanks for sharing. The truth makes us FREE. Freedom and faith allows us to see ourselves as God see us.

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    1. lifeas_shiiiSeptember 28, 2018 at 8:34 AM

      No problem. Thank you for your support and you are so right about that!!

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