I never thought that the more I write these blog post the more vulnerable I become and the more I open up. Pieces of me are being revealed and being healed......... At 12:48 AM I am a huge mess, the more I believe my life is together the more hurdles I face, but that is life you will be jumping over hurdles forever because it promotes growth and healing. I am listening J hene Aiko new song "Triggered" and I feel every verse coming from her mouth. I am going through a heart break that was needed, because it revealed so many unsolved emotions that I have let build up from my past. I was never a person to cry and if I did cry something tragic had to happen, but for once I am crying everyday. I am sitting in my tears, feeling the pain run through my veins into my heart from all the hurt I tried to run from which eventually caught up with me. At 12:48 AM another night of not being able to sleep with thoughts running through my head that I feel I have no control over but ...