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12:48 AM

I never thought that the more I write these blog post the more vulnerable I become and the more I open up. Pieces of me are being  revealed and being healed......... At 12:48 AM I am a huge mess, the more I believe my life is together the more hurdles I face, but that is life you will be jumping over hurdles forever because it promotes growth and healing. I am listening J hene Aiko new song "Triggered" and I feel every verse coming from her mouth. I  am going through a heart break that was needed, because it revealed so many unsolved emotions that I have let build up from my past. I was never a person to cry and if I did cry something tragic had to happen, but for once I am crying everyday. I am sitting in my tears, feeling the pain run through my veins into my heart from all the hurt I tried to run from which eventually caught up with me. At 12:48 AM another night of not being able to sleep with thoughts running through my head that I feel I have no control over but ...
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Transition...

Transition.....   "Loving yourself is the most fulfilling, and beautiful love that life has to offer.  -Reyna Biddy  Sometimes transition is needed in life in order to grow. The month of March brought me a lot of reflection, spiritual growth, transparency, and positivity. In March I took a look in the mirror and faced all the good and bad about myself. The goal for me is to always have a pure, kind, and loving heart in any circumstance, but the truth is I am far from perfect and there are so many things that I need to work on. I have been focused on my energy and the energy of others. I have learned to remove anyone out my life that gives off bad energy. I decided to be selfish for once and take care of myself mentally, physically, and spiritually. There has been dead weight lifted off of me by learning to move on from my past.  I feel like a woman who is unclothed and free of everything holding me down. I am not drowning anymore but instead above ...

20 Somethings....

20 Somethings... "Good luck on them 20 somethings, But God Bless these 20 somethings" -SZA Hello everyone, it has truly been a long time since I wrote a blog post but that is because so much has transpired in my life. I had to refocus and get my life together completely, but with this blog post I am going to do something different. I'm going to be vulnerable and speak about my current feelings and emotions. I want you all to know what I learned these last three months from everything that has transpired in my life. Also, be sure to comment below and give me feedback about what you've read! This blog is a safe space for all women and men to be exactly who you are, let's talk and discuss our feelings together!  November 2018 was when everything began to go down hill. I was having extreme suicidal thoughts every day and attempted to kill myself  twice. I just wanted to finally be done with this thing called life. My emotions were all over the pla...

Beauty

Curly Hair Routine:  1. I use Aunt Jackie's Shampoo- Moisturizing & Softening Shampoo 2. I deep condition my hair once a week with Carrot Cholesterol (ONLY $4.99 at the Beauty Supply Store I go to which is the Beauty4U in Bowie) (Price may vary but it is usually around $5.00)  3. Shea Butter Curl Enhancing Smoothie or Strength & Restore Leave-In Conditioner Jamaican Black Castor Oil  4. Aunt Jackie's "Don't Shrink" Flaxseed Elongating Curling Gel or Aunt Jackie's Butter Crème Intensive Moisture Sealant  5. Sometimes I use Curls Unleashed Curl Defining Crème great product but I just personally do not use it all the time  * I moisturize my hair with Virgin Olive Oil!! * The order I put everything in is the order I use products on my hair *I did not put prices because prices may vary *THESE PRODUCTS ARE ALL SULFATE/PARABEAN FREE  *I ONLY WASH AND DEEP CONDITION HAIR ONCE A WEEK  *GET A SPRAY BOTTLE THAT WILL BE YOUR BESTFRI...

Beauty

Skin Care:  *All of these Products are from Wegmans and Whole Foods (Face wash can be purchased at Wegmans, Whole Foods, or Target)   1. Alba Cleanser Pore Purifying Pineapple Enzyme ($9.99)  2.  Thayers Witch Hazel ($9.00 or $10.00)  3. Shea Butter ($7.99) *All of these Products are from Trader Joes  1. Tea Tree Oil face wash  2. Tea Tree Oil cleansing pads    3. Shea butter *All of these products are from Whole Foods   1. Alfia Bar Soap  (any kind)  2.  Thayers Witch Hazel ($9.00 or $10.00)  3. Shea Butter *All of these Products are from Target expect Shea Butter which is from Whole Foods, or Wegmans  1. Clean and Clear Lemon Gel Cleanser 2.Thayers Witch Hazel 3. Shea butter   Additional Notes:  To exfoliate I use St. Ives use any kind you feel would benefit your skin all of them are great. I exfoliate two or three times a week.  For a face mask I use Indian ...

Thank You, NEXT

Heartbreak comes in many different forms for me it came from catching my significant other getting hotel rooms with someone else. Heartbreak came from the boy who took my virginity and left the next day, or the boy who broke up with me a week before prom, or the boy who put his hands on me. Heartbreak also came from the lying, the verbal abuse, the disloyalty, and always seeming to get left or falling out from each other in the worse way. Heartbreak came from falling in love with my best friend and having to leave that toxic relationship three years later. Heartbreak for me wasn't just someone that broke up with me, but from trusting these people with my heart, placing my heart in their hands and feeling them crush it day by day. Heartbreak came from me giving multiple chances only for them to go back and do the same thing again. The worst pain of all was losing myself at the end of it all and that little girl that was filled with love, innocence, peace, happiness, kindness ...

Faith...

Faith... Hello everyone, I don't know about everyone else but this week I am TIRED. I just keep thinking of sleeping and binge watching my favorite Netflix show all while knowing there are things that need to be done. I had to encourage myself everyday this week to push through so I hope this blog post motivates you to do the same.  There are some days in my life where I say forget school, work, and my personal life.  I get to a point where adulting starts to overwhelm and frustrate me. These are the days where my energy tank is extremely low. As women I feel we have this thing called "The Superwoman Syndrome". This is when we have so much going on that we feel the pressure of making sure everything is perfect and we have to be in control at all times. I know my whole life I've had this syndrome and there was no break for me, I just wanted to keep going and going. In my head, I have to be the best of the best and if I'm not then I have failed mys...